eat your meal on your own dish !!!

Huuuu, sebel dech.., ni org ga ngerti apa kata2 "EAT UR MEAL ON UR OWN DISH" heran dech gw ma makhluk satu ini.., ga pernah puas ma apa yg dah dimilikin.., plis dech..., klo lo dah punya makanan di piring lo.., knapa siy musti ngambil makanan di piring laen.., kasi kesempatan dunks bwt org yg di piringnya ga ada makanan!!!!!
tapi mang ni anak satu ini yg temen2 gw biasa nyebut si Tiny nyebelin.., suka ngambil jatah kerjaan orang.., n pura2 ga merasa bersalah geto.., n the worst thing bwt gw.., dy slalu "ngambil" cowo2 gw.., hikkkksss jangan dunks bwt yg satu ini.., pliiiiiiiiiiiissssss gw dah bosen, milik gw diambil ma lo truuuuuuus, pliiiiiiiis

Pasrah

gw masi blom ngerti apa yg dimaksud dengan pasrah di sini..,
bukan dalam berperang atau apa...
tapi pasrah dalam berdoa...
misal..,
apabila kita menginginkan sesuatu..
kita berdoa kepada Tuhan agar doa itu dikabulkan
nah.., banyak yg bilang agar doa tersebut terkabul
kita harus pasrah....
gw masi ga ngerti..,
how???
coz dlm pikiran gw..., pasrah dalam berdoa
berarti kita hanya memohon kepada Tuhan tanpa berusaha...
misalnya
Ya Tuhan.., aku menginginkan bla bla bla tapi smuanya kupasrahkan kpadamu...
apakah itu yg dimaksud dengan pasrah dlm berdoa ?
karena dalam pikiran gw..,
apabila kita menginginkan sesuatu..,
doanya seperti ini :
Ya Tuhan, aku menginginkan bla bla..,
aku mohon Engkau mengabulkan permintaan ku, amin
karena hal tersebut memang benar2 apa yg kita inginkan..

ada temen gw yg bilang LOVE EASY COME EASY GO....
waktu itu gw ga percaya.., tapi pas ngalamin. ada bener nya juga loh...
ni buktinya.., tapi musti balik dulu k beberapa waktu yang lalu yaaaaaaa
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taun 2007

wiii gw lupa tepatnya bulan apa.., pokonya agak2 akhir taun 2007 dech skitar bulan september-oktober..
ada cowo yg mulai deket ma gw.., sebut aja Mr X, my first impression to him.., "penjahat kelamin", playboy.. hahaha.., tapi gw tetep deket ma dy as a friend.., abis orgnya kocak plus gila abis..., nah pas skitaran bulan yg gw sebut di atas tadi..., kita mulai deket.. (maksudnya, dy mulai deketin gw) rajin bgt SMS, telfon gw.., gw sey anggepin biasa aja.., coz gw juga lagi SMS-an ma cowo laen..., tapi berhubung si cowo laen ini ga mungkin jadian ma gw krn bnyk hal.., so gw mulai mikir, yaaa OK dech gw tanggepin si Mr X ini..., lama2 telfon2 nya dy.., SMS2 nya dy jadi kebiasaan.., gw jadi addicted.., sehari dy ga telfon or SMS bawaanya pusing.. hehehe
akhirnya abis SMS-an, telfon2an.., kita mulai sering jalan bareng... n ujung2nya jadian dech
huuu gw SAYANG plus CINTA bgt ma dy..., pokonya i'll give everything for him, even my soul!!! lebay banget yaaa, tapi mang gw cintaaaa banget ma dy... sayang bgt ma dy...., klo dy sakit.., gw pengen gw aja yg sakit bwt gantiin dy,.. tapi ternyata apa yg gw kasih ma apa yg gw terima ga berimbang.. yeah i know. klo cinta itu ga mengharapkan apapun.., tapi klo CINTA DIBALAS DUSTA (hahahaha.., nyontek judul lagunya Audy).. siapa yang mau siy... ternyata dy selingkuh ma banyak cewe n salah satunya anak kantor gw yg satu divisi juga ma dy.., huuuuu sakitnya hati ini..., n dy juga mutusin gw sepihak tanpa ada pembelaan dari gw.., pokonya sedih dech..
tapi.. abis kita putus, kita masih sering jalan..., gw sey masih berharap...kita bisa balikan...
tapi tepatnya di hari ulang tahun gw kemaren (16 agustus), gw tau smua..., gw tau dy selingkuh yaaa pas ulang taun gw, n yg the worst ever, he badmouthing me behind my back.., dy bilang k org2 gw tuch ngeFANS ma dy abis, gw tuch nangis2 minta bali, gw tuch ga penting... wwaaaa pokonya parah dech.. sakit rasanya..
tapi mang dasarnya gw BEGO!!!!, gw masih sayang loh ma dy.. masih ngarepin dy berubah, masih cinta ma dy, masih nangis tiap malem mikirin dy..., huuuu pathetic bgt dech pokonya.....
pokonya gw ga percaya LOVE EASY COME EASY GO..., malah rasa gw ma dy tambah dalem bukannya pergi....
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Oktober 2008

fuuufuuu, gw dah ga sekantor ma Mr X.., tapi gw masih inget ma dy.., sedih bgt dech..
suatu saat.., gw barengan ma cowo ini, kita sebut aja Mr Z.., Mr Z dah gw tau dari dulu, gw kenal dari dulu.., cuma gw ga pernah kepikirin bwt ngecengin dy, bwt suka ma dy.., gw cuma pikir yaaaa dy hebat, dy manis.., cuma segitu aja.., di mata gw cuma ada si Mr X doank..
balik lagi k Mr Z yaaa, nah.., abis gw barengan ma Mr Z ko gw ngerasa gw cocok ya ma dy..., dalam smua hal.., pokonya gw ma dy nyambung abiiis, wiii seneng bgt..., abis itu tiba2 jreeeeengk.., rasa gw k Mr X ilang geto aja..., rasa gw langsung ganti bwt Mr Z?????
huuuuu, baru gw sadar apa ini yg di namain LOVE EASY COME EASY GO..????
gw sendiri aja heran.., ko bisa THAT FAST???? is it love or just another crush??? gw masih questioning my self.., tapi yg gw tau pasti.., rasa gw dah ilang bwt Mr X., tau ga padahal hari kemarennya gw masih suka ma dy, ma Mr X...
ko bisa yaaaaa
huhuhu.., jadi kata2 LOVE EASY COME EASY GO itu terjadi di saat kita menemukan someone new yaaaa....

Lagu yg lagi gw sering nyanyiin...

Huaaaa, ga tau knapa, gw lagi suka ni lagu, hemph mungkin karena lagi sama ma hati gw kali yaaa, hehehehee

~*CRUSH*~
(david archuleta)


I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush'
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?'
Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will lastLast forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

i hate this cycle.....

Huaaa, blom apa2 udah curhat.., tapi mang niatnya geto sey.., hehehehe
gw bikin ni blog bwt curhat colongan ;p
hemph......, hate this cycle... yup gw BT ma siklus cinta (suit suit....) yg gw alamin...
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i've been there
she has been there
and her friend also
yup.., with different actor
BT ga sey.., BT kan...?

my first time

Fufufufu..., akhirnya gw bikin blog juga di blogspot!!!
huhuhu, pengennya sey dari dulu.., tapi apa daya.., gaptek niy....
huaaaa mudah2an gw bisa maintain ni blog yaaaa
see yaa on next entry.. ;p